This crazy little thing we call life.

Yikes.

When we are little and want to be all grown up it sure looks a lot easier than it is.  Bills, being parents, being significant others... its all looks easy.  Why?? Lol. Maybe because our innocent minds cant see stress, anxity, and the state of being competly overwhelmesd.

On Monday it will be 3 weeks since Bryson has a second set of tubes placed.  He also got his adnoids out.  Since he was 6 months he has been getting ear  infections  (usually double ear infections ) at least once a month.  Today we got meds for yet another one.  He threw the biggest fit when he seen we were getting ready to leave walmart.  Screaming at the top of his lungs.  Although im sure some of the looks and small comments from othera were to try and make him stop, so were just annoyed.  I wanted to yell, " People he is having a rough day and needs a nap." But really i was exhausted, and just didn't care what they thought.  Then was the fight to get him in the car.  Kid is strong!  Now we are sitting in the car in my moms driveway because he needs the nap.

Three weeks ago on Tuesday we got an awesome email from our previously nice landlord.  He said they want to sell their house and need us out asap to do so.  Our last day in the house is the 31st.  Oh yeah. No big deal.  Bryson just has surgery and we get to start packing.  So fun. NOT!

When you are growing uo and even when you start dating i dont think you really realize the amount of work that needs to be put into a relationship.  I know i didn't.  And then you just assume when you have kids things are just as easy.  But they get harder.  Now in this reltaionship you not only have to work to help your kids grow and learn but you have to remember you reltaionship still needs that too.  I am totally guilty of neglecting my reltaionship, to be fair so was Jeremiah.  We love eachother.  We have the same wants for our kids, the same goals in life.  We respect each other and miss the same things about our newly stared reltaionship from where it is now.  Then it just got to be too much. Those fights suck.  But maybe they are necessary.  We decided there HAS to be better communication. There has to be things we miss- us time, kissing, cuddeling, being us.    Thats hard to squeeze in when you get so used to just being parents.  Maybe i never really assumed relationships were so mucb work when i was younger because neither of my parents had long term ones while we were growing up.  Which, i am thankful for because there are many life lessons i took from that in my childhood.  But this last month it really hit me how important constant care for your relationship as well as your family is  needed.

We are working on staying with my mom until we find a place. So life is going to stay hectic for a while.  But I just going to believe its all in Gods plan and we will just keep moving forward.

I suppose its time to get ready for work. Until next time, Ill be trying to stay sane in this crazy thing we call life :)

Happiness

It's amazing to me how easy our happiness is to control, yet so many people are unhappy!

Before starting my home business the majority of my fb was filled with people who were unhappy.  New boyfriends ine week single the next and then back in love again craziness...people who hates their jobs...their baby daddy...ext.  Then i started It Works. A leader told me to rid all of the negative in your life.  I always thought if myself as a pretty happy,  positive person but i didn't  realize it could be better!

I took everyone that was crabby and drama filled off fb.  Hid them or deleted them.  That was step one.  Step two, I surrounded myself with positive people and made a point to not dwell i things I cant change  (thats still a hard on).

Its amazing how much control you have when you just take it!!  Having a bad day? Why...your job?  Significant other?  Someone you don't even know make you mad?  Change it.

You have the power.

Dont let someone else ruin your day, week, month...life.

Go to pinterest (im sure you have one) and look up motivational quotes.  Put them on fb or your phone.  Send them to someone and make them smil- it will make you smile too. 

Today Kamiah  asked me to make up a song for her and play it on her mini guitar.  The smile from the compliments was big but when she made one up for me and played it happiness poured out of her.  Be 3 again.  Speak from your heart and make someones day...it will make yours!

Night loves!
Be happpy 😙

Garlic ears!!

Well.  We have been having the worst iasues with poor little mans ears!!  Even after tubes we keep getting infections.  And of course we needed to get one 4 days into our 2 wk fl vacation. He was a trooper though.  The only thing that helped with his night pain was garlic taped to his ears.  Sounds crazy. But it was legit!! Haha. Then we get home to try different antibiotics and they didnt work.  Poor little man had to get a series of 3 shots.  And still he is in pain. :(  Dr again on wed.

Kamiah has been a champ at meltdowns the last few weeks.  And boy does she have the best excuses.  Amazes me she is only 3, because her artitude is definitely 8 or 9.

Before we left for FL Jeremiah put electric start in my car as a surprise!  Best surprise ever!!! <3. He also cleaned (scrubbed) the car, buffed the headlights,  had a bubble bath ready for me when I got home and a glass of my favorite wine with candles.  Sometimes he definitely outdoes himself!!

I seriously have the best little family.  Even though in days like today, where one meltdown is followed by another and I want to pull my hair out or Jeremiah is driving me nuts, they still rock :)

Now, off to pull apart a fight and make Miah nap. Yay! 😕

An amazing time of year! Minus having the Flu.

This time of year always brings back so many memories.  And im thankful to have an amazing family to make new ones.

Trying our best to remind out kids thats its the season if giving.  And at 3 thats a hard thing to understand.  But I think Kamiah has a good understanding.

Weeks ago I nominated my mom for a free cut and color a local salon was giving away.  With her always giving and never putting money into helself I thought it would be perfect, and she won!!!  For the lady who wears her shoes until they have holes and whos closet consists of shirts that were old boyfriends she deserves it.

One thing im thankful for is how she (and my dad )  raised us to be.  We were fortunate kids.  We had toys and clothes.  We were occasionally spoiled.  But times were also tough growing up.  My mom was the mom waiting in line for toys for tots and the giving tree to be sure we had gifts some years....to let us keep the belief that there was a Santa.   One year I remmeber we had a shop with a cop day.  We got to get something for us and for mom.  And one year a bonus mom planned on didn't come.  Katrina and I were lucky enough to have gone to FL that year to celebrate with my grandparents and dad.  We were each given 150.  We each decided to spend 100 on each brother.   Idk many kids who would give up that kind of money to give to someone else,  but we were proud to do so!  And that memory sticks in my mind always.  I knew we were raised right.  I hope I can instill the same act of giving in our kids.

Last night we had our last Christmas.  It was a full week of the kids being way off schedule and boy did we pay for it.  An entire night of meltdowns.  I got so crazy angry at Kamiah for being so naughty.  She was hitting and kicking.  Screaming about everything she could think of...including how she didnt like my face. Lol

I held her arms and legs so she couldnt moved and she cried I just want you to hug and kiss me.  And that was it.  I grabbed her and snuggled her until she fell asleep.  Sometimes its easy to forget how hard a little life gets and its even easier to yell and scream in your own frustration.   But try and remember.  Leaving them cry and hurt might not solve as much as a good cuddle.

Be thankful for what you have and spread joy to those you can.  One day it may all be gone and you will have wished you stood back and done something different.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!!

Greatful for wanting

The other day driving with both kids asleep in the car I thought to myself, I wish I had a newer car.  Which led me to think, a newer house would be great too.

Then I seen a man walking his bike up then hill with a small backpack.   He was clearly not biking because he wanted to enjoy the beautiful day.  It was like 10 degrees.

I started to think about all of the silly things I had wished I had in the last month....
A baby that slept in just a tad sometimes
A nicer car
A newer house
A bigger budget while shopping for food and gifts.

Then it hit me. I decided I had no need to long for things that werent necessary because I am already belssed with things many people dont have.

We have a car, two actually.   They take us where we need to go.  They keep our kids warm and they are reliable.

We have a home.  Its nice and cozy, and also keeps our family warm. Its nothing fablous, but knowing some people sleep under a concrete bridge makes it pretty fablous.

I have my baby to wake me in the morning.  I know too many that have lost little ones to know to never take for granted that baby that needs you.  That toddler that asks too many questions.  Those things that drive you nuts, are the things I know some miss the most.

We have a budget to buy food.  And are lucky enough to buy gifts, although they are nothing extravagant they are gifts.  And we cant wait to give them.  Im thankful we are able to feed our family like so many others cant.

This season im just reminded to be thankful. 

Kamiah was writing her sant list.  She started to write mine.  I had nothing to put on it.  I am happy.  As long as my family is, thats about all I can ask for. 

I seen on a group people (adults included) were making gift lists and giving them to people they know.  Its too bad thats what Christmas has become for so many.

If you have a little extra this season think about giving to someone else and doing something less for yourself.   It will make you feel good and so a great lesson to this generation.

The hard stuff....

While posting this im enjoying a wonderful mikes hard lemonade in a nice warm bath.

Today I picked up some things for a friends daughters birthday party.  Of course Kamiah wants the frozen chap stick set.  Its hard explaining to a 3 year old that she can't have this really cool item that's currently at her house.  There is a part SO big in me that wants to say ok...you can have it.  But because she needs to learn lessons in life I have to stick my grounds, im honestly probably as bummed as her.  BUT Santa WILL be getting it for her stocking ;)

The other day I read this blog about how this wife was so thankful for her husband who was understanding through her being pregnant and nursing and then being pregnant and nursing again.....and I thought GOD! Im not alone.  I mean I feel terrible all the time that my sex drive is like non existent right now, but sometimes I feel even more terrible because Jeremiah is still so amazing about it.  I sent him the blog - I totally didn't think he would actually read it and for a day assumed he didn't.  Oh well :)  Then one night he says, "So you really think im that guy?" Yes. I do.  You are. :)  And soon.  Oh so soon Bryson will be done.  But im not pushing it as hard as I could because he is most likely my last baby....and I want to soak it all up.

I laughed at myself a little bit today.  I got off work and HAD to use the bathroom. Im been holding it forever. So im at the grocery store and the bathroom is in this area thats quiet.  And not popular like a Wal-Mart bathroom would be. So after I went, I sat there.  Hahaha. I checked my FB...creeped a little and then idk, maybe 5 minutes later someone came in and I realized I was still at the grocery store....in the restroom.  Haha, the joys of soaking up the quiet!

This last week at work I have laughed so hard at the dumbest things. I love this part time job!!! Never a dull moment! Yesterday a WONDERFUL customer returned these super adorable moccasins.   They are 3 sizes too big for Kamiah but too small for her daughter....so after a small heart to heart she convinced me I HAD to buy them.  They are in my pile of to buy items at work ;) 

This morning Kamiah dressed herself (pretty normal) and then proceeded to turn the shower on for herself and "take a quick shower"  Kamiah.  You're 3....and a half.  Please slow down!!! 

Listening to Jeremiah give Kamiah a cheer up talk and play Godzilla with blocks in the other room gives me the biggest smile on my face.  Seriously,  if god really has plans for people he was definitely mine!!

Well.  Enough of the crazy randomness for tonight :)  Off to finish my mikes and my bath and then to play with my family <3 <3

Mommy, you're driving me crazy!

So, in the car today Kamiah tells me she is my roommate.  She has been on this kick for a few weeks now.  I told her she wasnt. That she was my daughter. And a roommate is usually someone who pays rent.  Like Mimis friend Gilbert.  She said well, Bryson is my roommate.   Well. Kind of, but not really because you guys are both our kids. 

She starts telling me she just wishes she was a mommy. And a big person.

"Kamiah, be 3. Its wonderful. You get to sleep in, wear silly things,  snuggle with mommy and daddy, dont have to pay for anything, you get to lean an amazing amount of things and you dont have to worry about anything.  Be little as long as you can.  Because someday you will have to be a big person and then you cant go back."

"MOM. I just want to be a mom!"

"Sweetie. I love being a mom. Its my favorite job ever. But its a lot of work!  You have to always make sure someone is happy, healthy, safe....you have to pay bills and worry about things.  You can go back to being little once your a mom...

"Uhh.  Your giving me a headache."

Obviously my advice ended there.

Bryson is still nursing.  And today the little shit bit me because he wasnt getting milk fast enough.  Well he seen quick that biting means NO milk!!!

Then I posted on a mommy chat board on tip for weaning.  Some brilliant mom says to star feeding him table food and give him a paci.  Ummm. Yeah.  He has been eating table food for a solid 10 months and no...im not moving from one habit to the next.   So ill stick to going for no advice and trying to wean him myself.   Why he can't do it easily like Kamiah, ill never know.

Jeremiah is sure his sleeping, or lack there of is because im nursing. But im convinced its an actual sleeping problem.  Kid wakes up between 10-15 times a night!   Yeah, no dreaming for me these days.  One day ill sleep again. One day :)

Well. I currently have an infant who has not yet discovered im in the bath, so im going to soak it up while I can.   Hopefully I wake up tomorrow a d magically dont have the flu anymore!!!!

Wishful thinking ;)