Yikes.
When we are little and want to be all grown up it sure looks a lot easier than it is. Bills, being parents, being significant others... its all looks easy. Why?? Lol. Maybe because our innocent minds cant see stress, anxity, and the state of being competly overwhelmesd.
On Monday it will be 3 weeks since Bryson has a second set of tubes placed. He also got his adnoids out. Since he was 6 months he has been getting ear infections (usually double ear infections ) at least once a month. Today we got meds for yet another one. He threw the biggest fit when he seen we were getting ready to leave walmart. Screaming at the top of his lungs. Although im sure some of the looks and small comments from othera were to try and make him stop, so were just annoyed. I wanted to yell, " People he is having a rough day and needs a nap." But really i was exhausted, and just didn't care what they thought. Then was the fight to get him in the car. Kid is strong! Now we are sitting in the car in my moms driveway because he needs the nap.
Three weeks ago on Tuesday we got an awesome email from our previously nice landlord. He said they want to sell their house and need us out asap to do so. Our last day in the house is the 31st. Oh yeah. No big deal. Bryson just has surgery and we get to start packing. So fun. NOT!
When you are growing uo and even when you start dating i dont think you really realize the amount of work that needs to be put into a relationship. I know i didn't. And then you just assume when you have kids things are just as easy. But they get harder. Now in this reltaionship you not only have to work to help your kids grow and learn but you have to remember you reltaionship still needs that too. I am totally guilty of neglecting my reltaionship, to be fair so was Jeremiah. We love eachother. We have the same wants for our kids, the same goals in life. We respect each other and miss the same things about our newly stared reltaionship from where it is now. Then it just got to be too much. Those fights suck. But maybe they are necessary. We decided there HAS to be better communication. There has to be things we miss- us time, kissing, cuddeling, being us. Thats hard to squeeze in when you get so used to just being parents. Maybe i never really assumed relationships were so mucb work when i was younger because neither of my parents had long term ones while we were growing up. Which, i am thankful for because there are many life lessons i took from that in my childhood. But this last month it really hit me how important constant care for your relationship as well as your family is needed.
We are working on staying with my mom until we find a place. So life is going to stay hectic for a while. But I just going to believe its all in Gods plan and we will just keep moving forward.
I suppose its time to get ready for work. Until next time, Ill be trying to stay sane in this crazy thing we call life :)
